Renewal

This past weekend I took my two daughters on a quick and spontaneous trip that just happened to include a short stop-off at a beach. Since we live in Iowa, "real" beaches (the kind where the sand comes from God instead of a truck) are a bit difficult to come by around here--especially the sort of beaches where you can't see the other side. But I hunger for that exact sort of beach.

All of the time.

I'm a fan of warm southern breezes, palm trees, and white sand meeting up with the jade green clearness of the Gulf of Mexico. Unfortunately, it takes about 20 hours to get to Florida's panhandle and at least a few hours more to reach some of my favorite spots: Clearwater Beach, Sanibel Island, and Naples. Unfortunately, when the idea struck to get the heck outta Dodge on Friday afternoon, it came with the dratted realization that "the new school year" was scheduled to commence on Monday. And since my bank account couldn't support two tickets to paradise, let alone the three we would actually need, Florida wasn't in the cards for our girls' getaway this weekend. 

So we went to Wisconsin, instead.

Now normally, I don't think most people think of "beach" when they think of Wisconsin. They think of dairy cows, dairy products, guys wearing cheese hats at football games, and rolling green hills dotted with (you guessed it) dairy cows. With the fame of Chicago and the very name of the state of Michigan being shared by that big ol' lake, we often tend to forget that Wisconsin, too, borders Lake Michigan. And when you've got a lake big enough that you can't see the other side, there's bound to be a beach worth visiting.

Right?

Sure. In . . .Michigan. But Wisconsin? Really?

Really.

I've been to the "other side" of Lake Michigan. A couple of summers ago our little family took a long weekend in the lovely little town of South Haven, which boasts two beautiful beaches and is within easy driving distance of many more. Although we all love our visits to the ocean, I have to say: Lake Michigan can be a pretty sweet substitution for us budget-conscious Midwesterners. When you look across the big expanse of blue lake, it may not have the salty spray, but it "feels" like you're at the ocean.

I don't remember thinking about Chicago or Wisconsin when I was on a beach in Michigan, just like I didn't think about South Haven, Michigan as I sat on the Kenosha, Wisconsin sand last Saturday morning. All I thought of was . . . peace. And wholeness. And the strange sort of "rightness" that settles over me whenever I sit near an ocean (or a reasonable facsimile.)

There's something about a big body of water and a sandy shore that helps me find my center. The vastness, the depth, the power of the waves and tides all work together to work a mysterious peace through my soul. Every time I visit a beach--a real beach, not the trucked-in kind--I'm reminded that I need more than what is seen. In the chaos of everyday life, I need that break from the land to know that it's okay to not be able to see the other side. That there is beauty in the mystery. That I don't have all the answers and that I don't have to have all the answers. I simply need to breathe, to listen to the waves breaking and slapping against the sand, and to feel the warmth of the sun on my face while the coolness of the morning still lingers in the sand.

It's only a five or so hour drive away, this beach we discovered. As drives go, it's not terribly long, but neither is it what I would call an easy drive. There's no direct route between my Iowa home and Kenosha, Wisconsin. There are confusing offshoots of interstates I don't normally travel, every excuse for road construction known to man, and every ten minutes or so, a toll booth that will make you a pauper in its quest to pull the state of Illinois out of its monstrous debt . . . at least in the transportation department. Honestly, it's a crappy drive to get to and from Kenosha's sweet beach. But then again . . .

Why should I expect a path toward peace in my soul to be an easy road? 

As a fantasy reader and author, as well as someone who studied at least the required bits of history necessary to achieve a Bachelor's degree in the United States of America, I know that peace is generally only noticed before or after a war. A season of unrest passes, and renewal--that deep, thirst-quenching hope, wells up within.

For me, the renewal of my spirit often comes 

by way of a beach. 

There is beauty in the mystery of not being able to see the other side. And in that beauty, there is hope.

GLASS CEILINGS: Highlights, Underlines, & Notes #2

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Bracketed in red pen in my trusty old NIV:

So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them. -Genesis 1:27

The handwritten note in the margin says: 

"identically & equally valuable in God's sight."

And I'm caused to wonder:

At what point did the early readers of this book begin to dissect that phrase and to separate, to denigrate, the place of women in the heart of God?

Here were are, so early in the scriptures--we're in CHAPTER ONE of GENESIS, for crying out loud!--and somehow, someway, women became almost immediately "less than" their male counterparts, according to history. But if this line is read contextually, not so.

The way I read this verse, the fourth word in, "man" is to be read as "mankind" or "humankind." That is not some feminist wish-it-were-so, that is contextual reading, based upon what seems to be God, making a point to clarify (after the semicolon) that "them" is meant to parallel that too-oft-misinterpreted-throughout-history-word "man" at the beginning of the verse. 

As a writer, I tend to play out thoughts like this as a scene. Here's what I see in my imagination when I read this verse. (You may picture something different, that's cool. But go with me for a sec.) I picture God, dictating the creation story to Moses. He's jazzed.  It's taking a while because, you know, Moses is a rather stubborn guy and carving words into stone? Time-consuming. But even though God is really excited to share how he brought earth and light and life out of nothing with the guy he especially picked to be his scribe, he's patient. It's just how he is. I picture him saying something like this:

God: "So I created man in my own image." 

*pause for carving* 

and then *pause for Moses to realize that means HE also is created in God's image*

Moses: Me too? In your... whoa.

God: *nods* "That's right. In the image of Me, I created them." 

Moses: *tilts head* "Them?" 

God: "Yes, them. Male and female, I created them. Write that down. It's important."

I wonder how many times since that originally carving, a female reader of scripture has come across those lines and paused, blinked, and wondered if everything she had been taught (out of context) pertaining to her feminine identity was wrong. Perhaps she had grown up in a legalistic, chauvinistic, or even barbaric home or culture. Perhaps her early introductions to Genesis had focused on how, as a woman, she was little more than a standard bearer of original sin and a vessel for producing a quiver full of sons. I wonder if, upon reading that phrase, her eyes simply skimmed over it, seeing herself not as the "them-as-connected-to-man", but as... an afterthought. 

Or did she pause to reflect about the eternal nature of God? An eternal nature that precludes the need for afterthought. 

How many times did my eyes skip over this bit of creation until I realized that it applied to me in a personal way?

I don't know. I don't remember when I drew that red bracket or made that note in the margin of my trusty NIV, only that I believe it to be true.

Surely I'm not the only one who has paused upon this verse. I have to wonder if, every time that verse causes a reader to pause, God heaves a mini sigh, shakes his head the tiniest bit, and then smiles and whispers across the reader's heart, "Yes, I mean both of you. I created both of you in my image." 

Male and female. Created in the image of God.

But... huh? How's that again? That's messed up . . . isn't it?

Not really. Because I really don't think God is nearly as hung up on physicality as we are. I think his "image" goes way deeper than our rudimentary and shallow definition of the word.

I believe it was author, poet, and storyteller Steven James who opened my eyes to the prismatic depth of this concept of being created in the "image" of God and how it relates not only to our physical appearance, but to our abilities, our creativity, our need for beauty and art and truth and so much more than we appearance-obsessed Americans allow ourselves to grasp. (side note: if you haven't read any nonfiction by Steven James, I suggest you start with his very beautifully written Sailing Between the Stars, one of my all-time favorite nonfiction titles. But really, everything of his I've read is gold, so... grab what you can and dive in!) When I look at that idea of "image" and hold it up to my version of the definition, mine is so lacking that it seems almost insignificant. 

In the big scheme of eternity, does it really matter what God looks like? Hardly. I'd wager that even when we get to heaven we won't be able to look him square in the eye--at least not for a long time! I mean, hello-oo, Glory! Before you send me angry emails, let me be clear: I'm not saying that God does not look like us physically (well, vice versa. You know what I mean.), he very well might. But it's not his physical appearance that makes this verse of scripture really sing in my heart. What matters is what of his image he has injected into us. 

And that he's put it into all whom he created in his image, regardless of societal or culturally mandated gender roles.

Male and female he created them.

You, me, him,her, us.

Outward appearance, bah. We were identically and equally created in the image of God. An image that goes deeper than skin.